070625 I am free of uni!!!! (ramblez)

Pheeewwwwwwww!! I am finally done with uni! I have been so busy with my dissertation and two other assignments due within 3 weeks so ughhhhhh been a bit preoccupied. I wanted to save updating my blog until I was done.... and here we are! I am very pleased with myself tbh. I feel like most people who are academic or whatever often encircle themselves with likeminded people, but although I love all my friends, they're all so goddam clever!! And I always end up comparing myself to them... I think it's normal and it's a very human thing to compare yourself. I constantly have to emind myself I am lucky to have gotten this far. Or maybe not lucky but idk. I have a chronic illness that has impacted me since 2017, I didn't think I would even get into uni (or be alive lolzzzzzzz), but I did and got in with awesome grades. And now here we are, and I have worked out my current grades and I will be getting the ones I need for most masters/grad courses!! Plus I got a first in my idssertation which is totally epic awesome. Anywayz yeah I am proud of myself and got myself a little bear from the uni gift shop that is wearing grad robes hehe.

Since finishing my assignments I have been sosososoooo chillaxing, drawing and reading. My collection of indie comics is growinf and I want to read more Batman comics (I have Hush and Court of Owls). I have also been drawing a lot, and using my increasing knowledge on comics to tweak my styling and elaborate in my story and characters. Though, I want to save most of the work on it for when I go home because that's where all my art supplies are. Gahhhhh speaking of I am so excited to get home and be with my kitties and family and rearange my goodies from my uni room and also see my friends from back home. I wanna get a job at some point, we'll see what opprtunities arise I guess... shitz hard bruh (I have never worked a day in my life gulp).

Even though I have my chronic illness pretty much manageable for the most part, I still just get mega brain fog and my concentration isn't the best so getting a job worries me... I think it's cuz it won't just be my own shit I'd be fucking up, it'd be shit that effects others n I hate disappointing people. But then again, I guess I gotta remind myself that I got through uni when I didn't think I would so this is just another hurdle I need to cross. I'm not too pessimisitic tho, I've proven to myself with my internship that I can work to deadlines and do shit for a wider initiative (ok we don't care this isn't ur CV lol).

Basically I am super excited to get home and not have major deadlines n get a job where I can just come home and work on my art and silly projects (like the fake Blythe doll I just ordered to create a mini-me!). I forgot if I said in previous posts, but when the 2026/2027 academic year rolls around I migh end up doing a masters, been looking into some cool ecology and conservation stuff! Or bruhaps I might do a grad job... hmmmmmmm.

On a completely different note, I read The Anatomy of a Fall by novembersmith (yeh another mcr fanfic soz), was actually very good and very engaging. It's sad theres not any further updates on it cuz the author is still active on AO3 but since the fic was from 2011 they might not even like the band anymore lol. But yeh super well written like so many words I had to ask Mr. Kindle for help with. Not that complicated words make its good but yeah. Some plot holes n like introducing the ye olde ghost n then not mentioning her again? Or how Frank actually began to be okay with going from the forest boundary. I thought it would've been cool if they explored how moving franks bones meant his ghost was fragmented more or something. Idk im acing like this is some literary masterpiece and not a literal bandom fanfic.

Yeah idk what else to sa a part from let the summer commence!!! As I also said previously I wanna upload my art to the art section I have yet to create (or if ur from the future, it may already be live!), n show the progress of my comic or just rando pieces. I also have a few CDs I nee to add to my collection (bangers might I say) and also maybe start adding my crystal/mineral and fossils collections.... hmmmmm.... yes anyway I'm gonna go sleep! G'night!